THE BEASTS THAT I HARBOUR IN MY HEART© Farouk Asvat
In the delicateness of the butterflyThat flutters within your heart
White pigeons scatter in our lovely garden.
The beasts that I harbour in my heartCome to life at night,
Seconds tick on like threats in a timebomb:
The night is more awake and alive
Than our days filled with slaughter.
There is so much affection gone to wasteSo much of the madness of love between us
That a shadow of disdain
Flits across your face,
While the fluttering ache of another poem
Comes to brood on my silent abdomen.
With you I knew sadness;It creeped into our laughter.
Misfortune was our companion
Sadness piled upon sadness
In the silence of the night.
TenuouslyI hold on to the rhythm of the seasons
I hold on to our hopeless revolution
Your downy little dove trembling
Between my tender loins
Softening the creases on my rocky face,
Oblivious of the ghost of savage mourning
That grows talons in my chest.
Still,I accept you with too many questions
Lingering on the periphery of other dreams
Dancing on the graves of other lovers
Ululating with the ghosts of youngsters
Dancing with machetes around our bed,
Offering you everything
As if there were no tomorrow.
If only I could learn myself in you.If only I could
Receive some of your forgetfulness
As a blessing and a curse.
But the wraiths of other loversWrithe within our sheets,
Dance in our dances,
While we try
To pirouette into oblivion,
Always the oblivion
Of the moment.
© farouk asvat
composed: 1983 - 1987 [Johannesburg, South Africa under apartheid] [v]
The Beasts That I Harbour In My Heart was previously published in:
The Wind Still Sings Sad Songs (piquant publications, p17, 2006).
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